I sometimes wish something would happen to my husband so I can start a relationship with my co-worker. I don’t want to cheat, and I don’t want to get a divorce either since we have a daughter, but I’ve fallen for my younger male co-worker. Since my husband got a new job 6 months ago, he has come home from work, passed out, wake up to eat, then passed out again leaving me to fend for myself and our child until the next morning when he wakes up to go to work and repeat the cycle. We haven’t had s3x in almost 3 months because of this pattern. My co-worker though, asks me about my day, makes jokes with me, looks at me with soft eyes that makes me feel like I’m wanted, and when we touch on accident it makes my heart race. I want him so much. Sometimes, when I catch him looking at me, I feel like he feels the same. I would never do anything, but I’ve been having increasing thoughts of scenarios with my husband dy!ng and being able to make a move on my co-worker. It makes me feel so sick, and I can’t tell anyone for advice cause I know they’d look at me like a monster.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023