My secret is My father died this month so I never got to say hey dad how'd your day I love you sooooo much My family dislike my dad cause he cheated on my mom but he still loved her anyway my mom and dad went on a date and it went well until January 9 that's the day he pastes away and now everyone at school are starting roomers about me and my friend William and this girl keeps bringing up my dad and saying that he died bc her does not like me I was my dad favorite he had 3 children so I was the oldest and I cant stop thinking about how my 4yo brother is going to handle this he know but he does under stand everyone is falling one me and wants me to be just fine whit it my mom is in nursing school so I try not to stresse her so thats my secret hope you enjoy my life story

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023