when I was younger maybe around 8 years old my cousin who was 10 or 11 touched me, I kept telling him to get off but he wouldn’t and at first I thought it was a joke but he got aggressive and I screamed and only then did he get off, I haven’t told anyone cause I thought it was normal. I am now 16 years old and keep having nightmares. My family and his are still in touch and see each other and terrifyingly I don’t think he remembers nor would anyone would believe me.

My life started going downhill in 2020 pre pandemic. COVID was honestly the least of my concerns. I’ve kept it all to myself bc I don’t want to burden anyone and I don’t feel comfortable opening up to ppl. I was 13 when the problems began and I’ll be 16 this year. At 14 I started to get thoughts that I shouldn’t have been having like suicidal stuff . I’ve also heavily considered running away from home bc then I’d still be away from the problems but not be dead yk? I don’t want to die but I kinda hate living too. It seems stupid but idk how else to explain it. I want to get help and go to therapy or something but I’m Latina and my parents don’t really care much abt mental health and whatnot. That’s it, I just needed to vent ig.

• June 26, 2023