I've had sexual thoughts about my mother and it won't stop. It's not her that's the sexual part it's the kink i guess. It won't stop and I hate it but its just a sexual thing in my head. I hate that I think about it because I love my mother so much and I hate that this is happening. I don't know what to do or how to stop please if anyone knows anything or could possibly relate please please leave a comment. I know that I am a horrible person because of it and all I want to do is stop having these thoughts because they destroy my mind but it just happens. Please help me

Ever since I was little I was never able to express or label my emotions well. It’s hard for me to empathize with people and honestly I don’t know if I care that it doesn’t bother me. I mean sometimes it does because I want to feel what other people feel. I just don’t know how to connect with people. This has affected many, possibly all, of my relationships. No one knows what my personality is really like and honestly I don’t know either. It changes so much depending on who I’m with. It’s like each day I put on a new persona. Sometimes it’s very confusing and other times I don’t feel anything at all and can just fake everything. I don’t know how to worry (I think that’s the word I’m looking for) about this and fix it because I don’t know what the problem is

• July 3, 2023