When I was 10 years old my mom sent me to live with a family friend of hers who was a "pastor" he had a wife and 2 kids. Every night he would come to my room and touch my boobs but I couldn't say nothing because he said it wasn't bad. One night he came secretly again to my room and wanted to force me to sleep with him but couldn't cuz he was almost caught. I tried telling my mom but she said I was lying and she would beat me if she heard that again, so I just stopped trying to talk and it went on for 2 years. Funny thing about it is that he would go to church and preach against adultery and all those kind of stuff and people would really believe him.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023