So I’m from a split home. Been that way from 3rd grade and I’m a sophomore in high school now. I’ve seen some rough stuff and I’ve always had to brush it off to be strong for my now 9 year old brother. The one who made it all so horrible is my Dad. Since day one of the divorce he has done everything in his power to make us miserable but not take claim to any of it. It had gotten so bad I’ve pulled my hair out and he still won’t admit anything. There’s been points where I considered confronting him but my fear of what he may do to me or my brother stops me and it hurts so much. I want him to know but I don’t know how. I’m sick of doing this.

I was interested in this guy at the beginning of the school year. (I'm in 10th grade). I never planned on me actually catching feelings for him. I just thought he'd just be my crush at school who's nice to look at nothing more. Now I'm here thinking of him constantly and making scenerios with him in my head. I have made my move. I gave him this sticky note. Then I also did this school thing that's called "candy grams" and got him one. I even wrote my # on it. He never contacted me though. So I confronted him at school. Asking if he got it. He just said "oh that was you" and I was like "yeah" and the conversation ended there. I later dmed him on insta. I asked him questions about him then I finally started asking the important questions like why didn't he contact me (his number wasn't set up or something his messages doesn't work) and if he threw away the candy gram (he didn't he just lost it) and if he was in a relationship (he was single) and I tried to ask what his sexuality was in the most respectful way idk if I accomplished that though. (He's straight). Then I found out that he was my crush in 8th grade. I didn't recognize him because his hair is long now back then it was really short. He recently got a haircut though so it's not as long but it's still long. So I thought "this must be destiny". So I continued talking to him, the conversations were very one sided and weren't very much convos. So I asked him straight out "if you don't wanna talk to me just say that which he replied with "yea I don't". It's been months since then. New semester we have a class together. I recently found out that he isn't looking for a relationship just s*x. But my question is why didn't he try to get to that point with me- he didn't even try if he's really like that you'd think he'd try having s*x with me especially since my body is more grown in specific areas. Not that I would, I wouldn't I'm just wondering why he didn't even try to. Maybe it's cause I'm taller than him. Are boys intimidated by that?

• July 18, 2023