So when i was in yr 6 i had a bestfriend she was my best friend since growing together wich is cresh. In year 6 i had a boyfriend not gonna mention any names but yh she asked him out he said yh she knew i was dating him. Then a few weeks later i forgave her dk why. Then she had covid so i bothered with my girlfriend bc im bi and im a girl btw and then she started spreadinh rumors and yold the whole school i had a girlfriend i got amade fun of. Then she told me to catch covid and go die i said okay fair enough. Then a few weeks later my sister had her friends over. My mam was sat in my sisters room with her and her friends when my soster said very loudly at me go and catch covid and go die i hate u. My mother just sat there and acted like nothing happened. Last year i tried to kill myslef but my 5 year old sister stopped me.

I'm a bad kid, being me ik all my family's passwords nobody can hide anything from me without me finding out in due time. I always get in trouble and do stuff to make my mom mad so for some reason I went through my mom's phone through her texts all her listed passwords and I came across a note in her phone it was locked I typed in the password I used to get into her phone and it opened that's how I found out my mom was depressed and planned to.. in a few months my heart dropped at reading this I had been such an awful kid and I was the reason. Then something in me changed and I just couldn't be a bad daughter anymore I wanted to but there was always an invisible force holding me back. I started showing more love and support and on the date that was read on her phone she took me to a bridge over water pulled to the side of the road and told me to get out I panicked because I knew what she was gonna do but instead she came clean to me and we talked and I told her that I already knew about it. As bad of a daughter I was I love and always will love my mom and I couldn't stand the thought of losing her.

• August 6, 2023