when i was 12 i met this boy we live 30 minutes from each other and I thought I truly loved him and I thought he loved me too and that he would never hurt me on my 13th birthday he came over and he raped me and my parents were in the house and I told them after eight months but it was scary and it was the worst day of my life. i don’t celebrate my birthday anymore and ive had boyfriends in the past and have had sex. but with my current boyfriend it’s weird bc i only did that with the other guys bc i thought they’re leave me. my current boyfriend and i want to do “it” and he’s never pushed it or begged for anything. i still feel really weird abt it and idk what to do to get over it. can someone help me?

when i was younger (like 7-12) my dad used to hit my sisters and my mom divorced him. he rarely did it to me but he would emotionally abuse me a lot. like being manipulative and narcissistic. i’ve been to a therapist ordered by the court about it but no one ever takes me seriously because “he never really hit me” it still impacts me a lot and i try not to think about it but when i do it really messes me up. recently my moms boyfriend had asked us to move in with him and my mom said yes. my dad used to move around a lot and so the town that we’re moving to he has lived in. it’s giving me severe ptsd and anxiety and i can’t control it but my mom is telling me to get over it because hes different. well she’s had boyfriends before and they weren’t different. i can’t help feeling guilty like i’m stopping them from being happy but i’m very unsure about it. her boyfriend hasn’t given me a reason to doubt him and he’s really good to me and my younger siblings but i still worth it won’t work out.

• August 4, 2023