I have a crush on the same boy as my bestfriend. Me & him sat beside eachother and I caught feelings, she's my bestfriend so I told her after about two months of liking him. Her face dropped and I didn't know why because I was stupid. A few days later she told me the truth, and I had to act like i was find with it. I haven't asked when she started liking him, but it doesn't matter anyway. After a month I told her i had "lost feelings". Now All his friends know she likes him and tells him to date her, and I have to pretend to ship them and try to get them together when it makes my heart ache so much. One of his friends likes me, and i know it breaks his heart when I rejected him, i played it off as My mom not allowing me to date, which is a lie. I said I wanted to say yes. I didn't. Now he thinks i like him and he flirts with me, while i have to pretend to like him, all while really liking my bestfriends crush who I think I liked first. Wow.

I'm a bad kid, being me ik all my family's passwords nobody can hide anything from me without me finding out in due time. I always get in trouble and do stuff to make my mom mad so for some reason I went through my mom's phone through her texts all her listed passwords and I came across a note in her phone it was locked I typed in the password I used to get into her phone and it opened that's how I found out my mom was depressed and planned to.. in a few months my heart dropped at reading this I had been such an awful kid and I was the reason. Then something in me changed and I just couldn't be a bad daughter anymore I wanted to but there was always an invisible force holding me back. I started showing more love and support and on the date that was read on her phone she took me to a bridge over water pulled to the side of the road and told me to get out I panicked because I knew what she was gonna do but instead she came clean to me and we talked and I told her that I already knew about it. As bad of a daughter I was I love and always will love my mom and I couldn't stand the thought of losing her.

• August 6, 2023