Before we start. JR+JL So I knew this girl since 6th grade, I never really talked to her until 9th grade which was like 7 months ago and I’m a really horny guy it’s actually disgusting how horny I get but that’s besides the point. She talked to me in 6th period while I was listening to music and ever since then I couldn’t stop think about her. She’s lesbian and I’m a guy so it’s tough to get her attention also I’m terrible with talking to people so I haven’t talked to her in my 6 months. I think I love her. I also use her as motivation to not masturbate cause it’s wastes a lot of time. I’ve liked girls before but not for this long I’m actually thinking that I might be in love. She’s just so pretty and as far as I know she’s hella fucking smart so it’s perfect for me ok let’s get this clear, she’s not hot and tbh I think I just think she’s pretty cause I’m in love with her but I don’t care she has the nice manly jaw and ahh it’s so cool or hot I guess she’s nerdy and like some of the stuff I like damn I’m so fucking useless ahh I’m getting no where with this ima go take a shower think about her and life and my music and then wash my clothes for tomorrow and most likely look at her from afar like a creep cause I’m too scared to talk to her, hopefully. OH wait she knows I like her so that’s that too. Hopefully she ends up liking me back I really don’t wanna waste time. - Janus out.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023