just felt like sharing my life tbh !! it lowkey sucks tho but like I have that mindset where my life is fucking amazing! anyways started it off w getting sexually assaulted and a lot of ppl judge me for bringing awareness to it! then uh my best best friend he passed away in a car accident and I’ve only received criticism for it which is so sad and my mom thinks it was on purpose bc idk she never liked him but it’s so upsetting he lost his life due to some black ice on the road !! then later my mom was diagnosed w cancer and a ton of shit and she doesn’t have long to live and around the time my sister got diagnosed w autism. my parents then divorced and my dad gave me an Ed he would force me to run on a treadmill 2 hours a day along w eating very little so I got depressed once we moved outta the house ! i started vaping and sh to cover my pain and it really helped until my sister caught me w a razor and decided to get back at me by doing the same thing to her legs but she burst a vein and it was so upsetting. anyways my bf won’t let me sh or vape anymore so im like kinda clean !! but is it bad I still think abt suicide so so much and have attempted a few times like I fucking hate my life but love it at the same time yk?