Hello, all my life I’ve been bigger than most kids i was the chunky kid i was the fat kid and you would think growing up you can escape any negative comments from class mates or random people while home or being around family but for me that wasn’t the case at all. I grew up in a Caribbean house hold and they are to blame for the way i am now. My mother used to force me to go and play soccer with my stepdad and his friends please understand i was only in the 7th grade so i was around 12/13 and she would always try and force me to go play soccer with grown men yes I’m a big girl but that doesn’t mean i should have been forced to go and play soccer with these grown men and these men were very aggressive. Also growing up my family used to talk down on me and call me names my mom was “never able to find clothes my size “ and the older i got i realized she never really took the time to do it because when i was with her i was ALWAYS able to find something so since that was her excuse for everything i literally started doing it on my own whenever i had the money for it or was able to buy it. my mom would always compare her self to me because she was smaller than me and would say stuff that would really hurt my feelings she would tell me that I’m not sexy and compare me to big animals like a elephant or bear stuff like that. My grandma always brought up death or being a diabetic whenever she Was trying “to help” my aunt and her family literally used to brutally pick on me they would purposely embarrass me infront of company or in front of other kids. My used to be step dad bff used to always call me fatty he never would call me by my real name this man was always insulting me and everyone elects expected me to just brush it off. This has made my life so hard i try every day to fit in but i don’t have anyone who can relate to me nor do i have any one i can just talk too about it i keep everything bottle up. I’ve also attempted to unaligned myself on multiple occasions but it was never successful because i always woke up the next day even though i wasn’t supposed too my life is a daily struggle everyday and i just honestly don’t know what to do any more about it.