I said I was sa and I lied I’m a horrible person and I know that I am so ashamed the police got involved and the guilt was so strong I never told anyone until now I guess I just wanted attention.. that doesn’t mean what I did was ok I just wish I had the guts to say I lied about it all.. maybe the day will happen someday soon.. I’m sure nobody will forgive me but whatever..

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I said I was sa and I lied

I’m a horrible person and I know that I am so ashamed the police got involved and the guilt was so strong I never told anyone until now I guess I just wanted attention.. that doesn’t mean what I did was ok I just wish I had the guts to say I lied about it all.. maybe the day will happen someday soon.. I’m sure nobody will forgive me but whatever..

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