When I was 7 my sister (15) got pregnant and had her baby and he passed away due to a disease. After the babies death her boyfriend left her, so she lost 2 important people in the same month. We shared a room so at night she would always ask me to sleep with her in her bed and this went on for a couple months. I think she used to pretend I was her baby and that the baby was still here. I never told anyone about this but I could always here her crying herself to sleep. I was her best friend and did everything with her and to see her fall apart in such little of time really destroyed me. My once funny and sweet sister now only cried and stayed in her room and it’s just really sad. I don’t think anyone really talks about how badly child loss affects people.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023