This isn’t a secret but there are people who suffer, suffer mentally, emotionally, and physically. People who push through hard ships. People who take hits or pick up their own feet when life knocks them down over and over. I like to believe those people are secretly angels. Angels who are sent to earth on a mission but we just don’t realize it, like life is a test or a obstacle to overcome but sometimes those people get stuck an can’t figure a way out so they decide to leave this world. There are others who push through no matter what, they power through even though they suffer and give up everything. I like to believe those people were just angels who were too tired to fulfill their mission in life an those who powered through are angels who conquered it. I am one of them, I suffer an life is one of our biggest obstacles an in order to help myself stay sane I tell myself “I’m an angel, power through”. YOU are an angel. Power through an conquer. And much love to those angels who couldn’t finish their mission because even though they got stuck in life they are the strongest❤️ much love to you all.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023