!TW! I am 14. I cut myself. I really really enjoy it but I feel so much regret. I regret doing this to my parents. I am extremely scared they are going to find out. I have no idea what to do because I have no idea how my parents will react if I try to tell them that I need help. I started cutting when I was around 11 but it was only every once and a while. Recently it started getting really bad. Like every opportunity I get I try to do it. It’s always on my mind and sometimes the urges get so strong. I want to stop but I can’t. I want to stop but sometimes I don’t. It makes me feel better in someways but I know the only way to really solve it is with real help. I regret ever starting but now I cant stop. I have never told anyone about my cutting but I feel like I need to get it off my chest.

when i was younger (like 7-12) my dad used to hit my sisters and my mom divorced him. he rarely did it to me but he would emotionally abuse me a lot. like being manipulative and narcissistic. i’ve been to a therapist ordered by the court about it but no one ever takes me seriously because “he never really hit me” it still impacts me a lot and i try not to think about it but when i do it really messes me up. recently my moms boyfriend had asked us to move in with him and my mom said yes. my dad used to move around a lot and so the town that we’re moving to he has lived in. it’s giving me severe ptsd and anxiety and i can’t control it but my mom is telling me to get over it because hes different. well she’s had boyfriends before and they weren’t different. i can’t help feeling guilty like i’m stopping them from being happy but i’m very unsure about it. her boyfriend hasn’t given me a reason to doubt him and he’s really good to me and my younger siblings but i still worth it won’t work out.

• August 4, 2023