When I was 5-6 my sister would make me do things to her like if I’m a man.. Everytime we showered together I would say no but she insisted I shower with her so we would kiss, she says “slap my ass”.. I never liked it but since then I’m addicted to doing sexual stuff.. I’m old enough who couldn’t forget those memories but I think she did so I can’t bring it up..

Not a secret but now that I'm here I kinda feel like I'm at a good place basically my life has been a lie Mt dad has lied to me abt my mom and made me hate her for years jus to make him look like the good guy he has always been manipulative ajs selfish and mentally and emotionally abusing he caused Me to have a mental breakdown once he caused me to fail a test I need because I was grounded and couldn't use my school laptop which sucks. I get grounded for the stupidest stuff. He cares about himself more than me and my brother, or atleasg jts how he presents himself. I feel like I'm everyone's punching bag in my house and I don't feel loved or wanted. I get called an embarrassment and screamed at constantly. Tbh the only thing keeping me from ending it is my friends, and the thought that if I keep torturing myself till I'm 18 I won't have to put my fake family through some emotional damage that they would carry thr rest if their life. Everything j say has to he sarcastic so I don't hurt anyone bc I'm afraid to and no one takes me serious. I can't speak freely without being scared of being hit. I want to be with my mom. @gdisis on tiktok. Sometimes I wish I could have a better life yet again I wish I could just take the easy way out but hurting to many people is too big a risk.

• May 17, 2023