my family completely hates each other. im 15 years old and this is my story. my mom dod drugs with me for the first 10 years of my life until i finally got the courage to tell my dad i wanted to live with him. (they were divorced btw) I was left in apartment parking lots and i found a dead guy in my moms bed when i was 4. i was traumatized. i saw my dad every other weekend, after toms of court trials. my grandparents hate my dad and my stepmom. my step moms the most amazing women in the world. i moved in with my dad when i was 11. and he got full custody of me. i was still hurting because i know i was disappointing that side of the family. i feel like my voice is unheard. and sometimes it makes me not want to be here anymore. my moms been in jail countless times. my stepmom took me under her wing as her own and loved me. my dad ended up leaving my stepmom for another women. he’s still gone. he left her. he left me. only time he messages or sees me is when he’s mad at me or needs something. i’ve never been close to a man. i watched him hit her countless times. and i had to get in between them and it really scared me. he told me if he was to ever kill himself i should feel guilty because i never made an.l effort to see him.my step mom is the most important person in my life. im fixing to go through a really bad time right now. 5 years of my dad having custody of me,even (though i live with my step mom) ny grandparents are filing a court case again against my dad. there filing for full custody of me and that my dad abandoned me. my dad told me he’s gonna rip me out of my step moms life and im scared. i don’t want to lose her. im emotionally hurt this. it’s never gonna stop until im 18. no one listens to my voice especially the judge. i wonder what they would do if i wasn’t here anymore. would it stop the fighting? is anything going to change? i can’t do this anymore. it’s mentally draining every good part of me.