i like a boy who just got a gf. i know this isn’t something to be upset about or dwell over but i’m in my senior year of high school and throughout my four years i just wanted to do well in school so i can leave this shitty town but that was until i met him. never in my life have i had i felt like this. yeah sure i’ve had my crushes but most of them don’t last long. never in my life have i’ve been so consumed with a boy in head like this. so you can imagine how my heart fell out of my ass when he announced to me that he had a girlfriend. i look at her and i compare myself to her that i realize is isn’t healthy but i can’t stop myself. i imagine myself in her shoes getting and feeling the love that he gives her. i know this sound corny and sad but it’s true. i guess i’m feeling this way because he’s the first person to make me feel this way. i’m sure he just sees me as his friend but there’s always moments where i question him, like when he texts me or how he touches and hold's my hand or how he over shares everything like i do with him or how he can tell whether or not i’m okay and much more. it’s been a few months since i’ve started liking him and over some time i’ve convinced myself i don’t like him as much anymore & i know i’ll never be in a relationship with him but why does he still bring me so much comfort when i think about him even though my mind knows i can’t have him?