I feel like I can’t talk to my bsf anymore. And it feels like we are drifting apart. I liked this guy and the other day she told me about how I need to get over him and Stop talking about him, but like a bit ago she was talking to this guy and he didn’t like her back and all she would talk about is how he only talks to her at night or when he’s bored so like… I don’t get it. Anyways I feel like I can’t talk to her about stuff anymore or she just uses it against me. We got in a fight awhile ago and we took a break. She said she was gonna change but yet she still hasn’t. Idk, I just don’t fully trust her anymore tbh. But I cant bring anything up or she will act like I’m in the wrong for trying to talk. What should I do

My great grandmother was around 92 years old when she passed away. Throughout my life I have seen her a lot since she lives relatively close (about 20-30 mins away). I moved away to florida for college in 2020. Fall of my freshman year in college covid was huge and my great grandmother wasn’t doing too well. Spring rolled around and my great grandmother had beaten covid and pneumonia. She was a very strong woman. I was about a month away from being home when she was put in the hospital again for covid symptoms. Everything seemed to be fine with her health but my mom asked me to facetime her cause she missed me. I facetimed her later that night and promised her I would see her in a month. She passed away about a week later while I was on spring break. It was slightly unexpected given her age and health condition. I was at the bar with my friends. Safe to say it changed my night around really fast. I was 3 hours away from my school with friends for spring break. My parents didn’t want to fly me all the way up the next day for the funeral and ruin the rest of my vacation because it was a decent amount of money to fly on such short notice. I watched the funeral from a room at my friends beach house. I couldn’t help but cry because of how awful I felt that I couldn’t be there. My regret isn’t that I wasn’t able to say bye. My regret is all the times I could’ve gone over there when i got older and had a car and chose not to because she lived so close and I thought I saw her enough with my family. When I got back home for summer break I went to her grave to honor the last promise I made to her. Just wish I could’ve did it in person.

• June 27, 2023