I grew up being abused by my own family ever since i was baby. My mom is mental-ill or whatever it is. She always have anger issues. She is very easily to get mad over small things. My childhood isnt easy. Its hard. Now i am soon to be 17 in May. I am deaf and life is tough and i know there's people out there go through same situation (different way) When my grandma was alive, she would protect me when mom or my stepdad tried to hit me. Grandma always been there for me until when i was 8 she passed away i have been on my own ever since. I made some tough choices. I payed my career school. I worked hard to pull my grades up and everything. I tried so hard to not give up bc i have been through with SA,S.H and mental health labels, abuse, and bullies and everything. Its hard. I have been through with polices, children services. Involed D.V. Yes i was forced to lie to people who trying to save me. I have pstd, traumas, depression, anxiety and etc bc of that. Its just... I don't get why parents are so mean and rude. Im sorry parents abuse you or anything that you had to go through. Srry i need to vent.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023