when i was 11. my science teacher had my friends and i do a project for extra credit. he suggested we test multiple lotions to see which works best. also came up with the idea of putting the lotion on our feet. being kids and thinking nothing of it, we did it. he only helped me apply lotion to my feet, and complimented our feet. soon he was fired for making sexual comments to another student. when i was 12. my friend taught me about porn, and almost everything sexual. sent me a dick pic and convinced me to send him a nude in return. when i was 14. a 18 year old became my friend and he was there for me at my darkest times. he told me everything i wanted to hear, and got me to send him nudes. also groped me a couple times, and created multiple accounts to keep contact with me. since i blocked him on everything when i turned 18. my uncle began touching me and kissed me once. till this day my family doesn’t acknowledge it. now that i’m older i keep my distance when i was 19. a guy followed me to the laundry mat and sat at a table where he could stare at me. i went into the restroom, and made sure to lock it. he tried going inside, and wouldn’t stop trying until a worker kicked him out. i have much more stories, some being worse than these… this goes to show “not all men” is bull shit. women live in constant fear and i despise it

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023