Ive never actually told anybody this I had an older friend when i was 10, she was 13 We were really good friends One day, she pulled me over to the side of the school yard and told me "My friend showed me this really cool site, its called pornhub its really hot". I didnt know what that ment at all, so i just said "cool" and went on with my day Later that year we had a sleepover, and she showed me the site while sitting next to me, and she said "if your parents come in just say we're watching anime" . We started watching videos, all of this was new to me and i didnt understand anything, i dont remember much, i dont remember what i was thinking at the time I wasnt disgusted, thinking about it now Later that night she started asking me if i wanted to play truth or dare, i was told to "hump" the bed and i didnt know what that ment but she showed me so i did As the night went on she started touching me more, and you can basically imagine what happened. She moved away a bit later, gave me her dog who had puppies and it still reminds me of her Im 15 almost 16 now and it still sickens me to think about it, ive struggled with the aftermath for so so long

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023