when i was around 8-9 my sister was 10-11, she introduced me to porn. more lesbian porn though, she then forced me to do it with her, me being a child i did it cause i looked up to my sister. but when i told her to stop she wouldn’t, when i’d beg her to stop she’d kick my pussy and stick her toe inside and left it damaged a bit. while i was being harassed, my parents became more verbally abusive with me and would say really mean things such as: i wish i killed you as a baby, i wish you were never born, you’re useless, no one will ever love you etc. and while that was happening, i was being bullied at school by ex best friend because i’m more on the chubby side. i only had my pet hamster to comfort me until he passed away the same year those things happened. my mom didn’t let me cry but i always cried myself to sleep and cried at school without anyone noticing. i attempted suicide multiple times during that same year but no luck. my sister and i are 14 and 16, my sister now does drugs, drinks alcohol, etc. and she tried to have sex in front of my younger brother, he’s only 1. after that i became the babysitter but i feel like my mom is taking advantage of that. i’m failing school because i spend most of my hours babysitting, and i don’t stop until 7-8pm. on school nights my parents go to the casino and don’t come until 12am. they use the excuse that they need to have fun but i barely have fun no matter how hard i work :( i feel like i was born to only be the babysitter, or the stand in mom. i hate it because i’m failing high school because of my parents. i don’t know what to do. i’m tired :(