I kept havibg this dream and it was always a boy on a tree and he was hung by the neck and he was dead and smiling and there was a woman smreaming next to the tree angrily idk why but each time i had the dream there was another child on three and they were always smiling despite being dead. In the end the dream stopped after the tree was emptied and i could only see my self on it and the womna who would scream was gone but there were 2 other woman one was shorter and in a white rove and she seems happy and the other was a tall burnt bloody woman. She seemed proud or the robed woman. After that the drean stopped.

My parents split up in August of 2018. I was so mad at him for everything he did to me and my family, including my mom. He chose hard drugs, and to cheat on my mom with her childhood bestfriend. I texted him once in a while, because I was 15 and I wanted to make sure my dad knew I didn’t hate him. Then I cut off contact with him after seeing him again in December and hugging him for the last time. I was never able to see him. In March 2021, (my room was right beside the front door) I took a nap at 6pm and woke up at 8pm, to the front door being opened and my mom talking at the door, my grandma was crying and my siblings were upstairs. I was so confused and my grandma comforted me while crying, I asked her if my dad was dead. She said “yes my girl.. he killed himself..” I was in shock at first and I let out the most blood curdling cry. I regret not talking to him. I believe that it’s my fault he’s dead, because I didn’t talk to him. I have the last message he sent to me, and I read it almost every day. I wish I could have done something to save him. Maybe I could have stopped him.

• August 5, 2023