i feel so lonely lmao. my ex bf fucking ghosted me and then when he came over to explain he said he did what was best “for us” and he said he didnt wanna lose me and wanted to start over. he keeps snapping me and i keep thinking hes gonna come back and ik hes not but i want him to so bad. my bsf keeps bad mouthing him and it hurts bc as much as i told u the bad stuff, i didnt tell u the good stuff yknow? and im losing her to a fucking 13yo online friend. and we got into a fight bc i was watching the superbowl and her and that goddamn middle schooler were like “okay band kid. u never liked football” and i jokingly brought up their matching pfps bc theyre like uber obsessed w kamisama kiss and then my bsf was like “yea but *exs name* didnt wanna match w u so at least i can say that much” and got so mad. like genuinely fuck you, you know how much im hurting. and im like ur closest friend is a fucking 13yo actually shut up ur almost 16. and then this girl goes “ur not mature. u dont have ur license (im not 16 bro and its not like u have ur fucking permit either???) and u dont have a job” like my parents dont wanna fucking drive me idk what to tell u. and u know we cant afford a car for my brother. and she says “age is ur only comeback” YEA BC UR BSF IS 13 SHES NOT EVEN IN HIGH SCHOOL AND ITS WEIRD IM SORRY. i just feel like fucking shit all the time all bc of my bf breaking up w me and i just cant do this anymore. bye this is so long

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023