my friend that i trusted with my life lied behind my back. let me explain. we had met in our science class and became really close. at the time i was a lesbian and questioning my gender, my mental health also wasn’t the best. he had asked me out and we dated for a bit. his exact words when he asked me out was “i wanna date you to fix your mental health.” he was bisexual. he always cuddled me and i always felt so awkward. i decided to use a h0rniness act but we never did anything. i get like oh teenage hormones, but i’m not like that.. never and still not. then i realized i was trans and he said he would support me forever. we did break up but stayed friends. while we were dating i had so many panic attacks because i felt bad i didn’t like him. i remember being at his house, and correcting him about my pronouns, he was like i’ll just call you he as your name. that really hurt. i then ended the friendship 4 months later because he was really hurting my mental health and felt like it wasn’t a working out and he was toxic. i now hear that he’s homophobic and transphobic, he lied about being gay. i do miss him a lot though, too much. i really regret that and think about it daily.