when i was 9-10 i was sexually assaulted by 1 of my brothers, i didnt think anything of it, but at the same time i thought it was weird. it went on for like 4weeks or sum and then stopped. when i was 10-11 i kept getting r@p3d by my oldest brothers friend and i didnt like it at all. i hated it. i wanted it to stop. i told him to stop multiple times but he didnt. but i couldnt do anything so when he came to find me i pretended i was asleep & i knew i couldnt get away. (he waited when every1 was asleep to SA/r@p3 me.) 1 time everyone was awake but i was running from him and i went to my room and he also came in.. he closed the door and started pulling my pants down. i hated it. i wanted to scream but he covered my mouth. 1 day i had enough. he came into the room i was sleeping in and he gave me a knife to stab the bed. (ik its weird, whats weirder is him) anyways he was getting closer and closer to me. so i said, “if u keep r@ping me im going to tell my parents” and after that he never did it to me again. now i cant do anything about it but stay silent bc i dont know if my parents will believe me.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023