What are your deepest secrets that you would like to share before you d.i.e?
When i was 9 i spent the night at my aunts house. At the time it was me, my sister, and my two cousins. We all slept on this blow up bed, so it was pretty crowded, the order was me, my cousin, my sister and my other cousin. I was trying to sleep but my cousin started to touch me, and she soon started to kiss me. I didn’t know what to do, she even grabbed my hand and made me touch her. With all of this happening my sister and cousin were asleep right next to us. I didn’t want to get in trouble so i kept quiet. I’ve never told anyone, i’ve never told anyone that she did those things to me. It happened for so long, she would always tell me, “it’ll be okay” or “it’ll be fun” but i never once wanted it i never once wanted to be touched like that. All of this went on for many years, till she finally went away. I still feel awkward around her when we talk, i feel uncomfortable and i don’t feel safe.. If i told anyone they wouldn’t believe me, and she would tell them i wanted it when i never did. By telling you guys i feel like i’m being heard and i want her to know that i’m not weak that i’m not scared of her. I was young and i didn’t know it was wrong that i could say no but i do now, i know that it wasn’t my fault. I want people to know it’s never your fault, it never will be and that you can speak up. I hope one day she can realize her wrongs and know what she did to me was wrong.
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