I think I may have sa someone before. I'm a female and when I was 14 I was dating a 16 year old male and I wanted to have seggs. We were in my basement and there was nobody around and previously he had touched me and things got intimate but I asked if he wanted to since he brought a condom. He said he wanted to but didn't want to get caught since my parents were home but I told him we wouldn't get caught and we were fine and we went in the bathroom and did things then my mom came downstairs and he freaked out. We didn't get caught but i feel guilty and it's been eating at me for years. I loved him, he was my first love but I don't know if I traumatized him and i hate myself for it

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023