There is this girl that has been my best friend for the past three years… And ever since I got to know her I’ve absolutely loved her. We have talked, at one point we both expressed the same feelings. But we both felt it wasn’t the right time. A lot was happening with covid we didn’t get to hang out and it was just hard. But fast forward to now. She always makes jokes about how she friendzones me and all that. Which honestly hurt. Because there isn’t a thing in the world I wouldn’t do for her. I could 100% see her being a great mother to my children. But she doesn’t feel the same. I’m sick and tired of living in this generation… I want long term not short little f boy relationships… god the things I’d do to have her in my arms… to have her say yes to marriage. To have our little kids running around the house calling her mom, mommy, whatever she’d like… I love her to death… and it’d be awkward if she saw this but oh well… If you do see this. I love you❤️

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023